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I'm going to get a lot of shit for this but I'm just going to ask and pray someone can help me or maybe we can discuss this topic so I can better figure out what I am going to do I've mentioned this very briefly in a thread a long time ago and dismissed it entirely until now because of reasons I am having difficulty with my penis. Specifically my foreskin. I have never been able to retract my foreskin and for many years it was fine. It has always been an annoying problem to deal with but something that never really bothered me too greatly. I just had to do certain things a different way or very gently I'm unsure if this is even possible but my foreskin opening seems to be getting tighter which is making things uncomfortable for me. I've never heard of this before. Masturbation is becoming a bit painful and it has been hurting when I wash my penis. I masturbate very frequently and have always tried to pull back the skin and keep it to the point where it can stretch the most but I was never able to go back too far. Pic related is how my penis would look if I tried to pull it as far back as it could go. Obviously, it doesn't go far back I'm wondering if anyone has any successful stories on just forcefully pulling it back and fighting through the pain?

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>>3822 This pic is how it "should" look after foreskin is pulled back but I can't even get it this far AT ALL If I just keep pulling backwards I know I would suffer great pain but if I keep pulling my foreskin should go behind my penis head. And I might bleed. But AFTER it is pulled back it should be able to be pulled back comfortably after that, correct? Like a "one and done" deal?

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>>3822 Google phimosis. Totally treatable.

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>>3824 I've known about Phimosis since around 2008/2009 or so But in all my readings you have to get surgery or get special ointments/creams prescribed by doctors IM WANTING TO KNOW IF THERE IS ANYTHING I CAN DO MYSELF WITHOUT HAVING TO GO TO A DOCTOR? They will just make fun of me and mock me And "stretching exercises" aren't helping as I've indicated above

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>>3822 >I masturbate very frequently There's your problem. Cut back to once a day. Which is still a lot more then normal.

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>>3825 Sounds like you know the answer. Thats why normal people get their kids circumcised.

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>>3822 easy peasy , just get it removed, its simple operation, you dont even get full narcosis, and you go home after few hours. When you get home, you feel like an idiot because you waited for so long and was scared to do it. Trust me , i went through it. Dont waste time trying to stretch it or whatever you do. >>3822 >>3822 >>3822 >>3822

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>>3822 it was covered by countries health insurance so i didnt even paid for it, just went to urologist and said i need it removed. And he send me to hospital to do it.

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>>3830 >>3831 Thanks for the input but I'm 100% against circumcision I don't want to be a freak. The normal and natural way is with foreskin Plus, a Urologist is a specialist here in America and it would cost a lot of money which I don't have right now I'm trying to find someone with advice that fixed this themselves personally.

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>>3832 Plus I don't want to go to a doctor at all anyway. Last time I went to see an actual physician was my pediatrician when I was 17 under my parents plan That was long long LONG ago Since then I had one or 2 urgent surgeries that I didn't plan for but nothing scheduled. So I haven't seen a doctor in a good almost 20 years for a regular check-up The staff always talks about the patients where I work. It is dehumanizing and demoralizing and all the other de- words I can think of I don't want to be some doctor's joke of the day. I don't want to get mocked for my small penis or my tight foreskin. I'm not that type of person who shrugs off jokes like other people. They make me feel bad and I cry 20+ years of never been flirted with would do that to any person. Crush any semblance of self-esteem

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>>3823 Wanna suck that cock and drink the cum and beg him to fuck me in faggoty ass.

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>>3832 >that fixed this themselves personally. Not possible.

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>>3836 >Outlander >Wanna suck that cock and drink the cum >beg him to fuck me Why am I not surprised.... /sigh

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>>3832 The hygenic and healthy way is without foreskin. I don't get why you bother with these topics kv when you don't even take anyone's advice... Shit, I bet you wouldn't even go to the doctor if you had a giant cyst on the underside of your ballsack.

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>>3849 I didn't. Was there on and of for months until one day it just went away If I just wait long enough stuff usually heals by itself

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I'm going to bed Good night guys Please. I know I sound like a broken record but please find me ANY girl willing to fuck me for free. I don't want to have to use a prostitute. I'm not that much of a loser to pay for sex like a degenerate. I still have my pride in that regard You are the only people I talk to The only people I converse with The only people that even know of my actual story and past experiences Just come on. Get up off of your high horses and do something good for once in your lives for a total stranger. I'm literally begging everyday and you guys never help me

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>>3853 1/10 chum.

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>>3850 I did want to add that the only reason I let it go on for so long is that I didn't have the type of pain that I have right now Now I am in daily pain. That is the ONLY reason as to why I'm debating on whether to see a physician or not If it doesn't get better by next Friday I'm going to a clinic. I took the day off just in case I actually do need to go. Ideally, I'd like to go to an actual hospital like the one where I work at but it is too expensive I need to walk to a low-end clinic. Good thing I'm a loser so I can just bring my iPhone and listen to music. I had an appointment many years ago and waited around 10 hours to be seen. It's not so bad honestly. I had downloaded anime (was a long time ago) and was binge watching shows. Think it was Fullmetal Alchemist If I remember correctly I went for.....yea yeah I remember. I couldn't hold any food down yet I was constantly going to the bathroom and I had lost a lot of weight quickly. Lost like 10 pounds in one month. And back then I only weighted 150lbs so I dropped down to 140lbs and looked like a skeleton (not really but my family never saw me that skinny before) I remember the doctor had to get a sample. Looking back I thought it was horrible and that I would die but looking back it is quite funny. I had to get a stool sample and I missed the bag and shat all over my hand LOLOL And for the urine sample the Nurse was freaking the fuck out. I didn't know "urine sample" means [pee 99% in the toilet and give us 1%]

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>>3856 So she walked into the toilet with me (which was weird as fuck looking back) and kept on trying to fucking snoop the little fucking snoopy bitch! So I had to keep turning my back towards her. Fucking slut. So I'd be peeing and looking around and she'd be walking towards my side and I'd have to stop mid-flow and keep edging around her so she wouldn't fucking see anything. Looking back I should have sued their ass In retrospect I think that, medically, she was just seeing if I was actually urinating into the cup and not using fake pee or doing something with the urine. I overheard the Nurses and Doctors a lot and a lot of times the patients will not divulge pertinent information like drug use or HIV or other shit because they are embarrassed. Which, from a patient perspective, I "sort of" understand since I'm too much of a bitch to go see a doctor so he won't laugh at my penis. So I kinda get it So I think she was just seeing if I was actually urinating and not tampering with the piss. But it still made me feel uneasy. Fucking cunt should have at least come clean and told me what she was doing Either way she gave me a small fucking cup to piss in. I looked at her like >You fucking bitch....you KNOW I got a big dick and piss like a race horse don't you.......you fucking bitch? So she gives me a cup and I fill it up Mid-stream it is full and so I quickly ask for another cup and fill that one up Then I fill that one up and I laughingly remember I said something like "Oh no! It's almost overflowing! HURRY! I need another cup!" And she quickly ran outside to get me another cup and I pissed in 3 sample cups.

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>>3858 Looking back it was super funny since I didn't know I was just supposed to give them a few mm and just piss in the toilet. It was my first urine sample (that I can remember) and I thought when they say "urine sample" they mean the whole thing so I gave her all my piss LOL So I shat on my arm/hand in front of the doctor and pissed all over these jars and handed them to the Nurse. Needless to say I got the vibe she was impressed with how clear my piss was. I drank gallons of water back then. Just the right warmth too. Room temperature So me and her start chatting before the doctor comes in to ask about my recent weight loss and I told him I had no appetite and he weighted me and laughed and said I was normal weight (my base weight should be actually 140 since i'm so short. but i don't think he realized or took into account i was decently muscular back then) So that happens and like 3 days later I get a call (or my Dad does) and turns out I got some kind of super bug or super virus and needed to go to the hospital ASAP to get medication They kept asking me questions and wondering how I got the bug. I told them how the fuck am I supposed to know? Anyway I got medication. I think it was 10 days of something then after that was done 10 days of something else. So 20 days of super serious medicine. Was awful Then, like magic, the bug went away and the following day I had went to a steakhouse with my Father to celebrate

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>>3856 The golden rule when it comes to one's health is that if you are any kind of pain without knowing the cause beforehand, then there is something wrong with you. >>3858 >>3859 How the fuck can you be so retarded when you work in a hospital? Don't you learn shit when you creepsdrop on the nurses during your shifts?

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>>3859 LOL Thinking about the past is always quite funny. I remember so much of my youth in such great detail The world now is basically just a blur. Everything is happening and changing so fast and half the time I don't care to remember anything as my life is not a fun one. I'm honestly quite hurt that my life has degraded to the quality it has. I have no quality of life. I have no happiness. I have fleeting moments of fond memories but that's it But when you guys ask about my past it kind of chills me out. I had such high hopes back then LOL I generally thought I was the shit. Teenage hormones I guess. Ego. Pride. Wanting to resonate my manliness to others. Wanting to peacock for women I miss my youth. I swear I don't even remember all these years that went by. I just looked in the mirror one day and realized my skin is sagging and I got fat. I can't even remember the in between I was 18. /fit/ Didn't have money but I had no bills so it technically was a better life. I had a vehicle. I had semi friends. At a minimum I had girls numbers in my cellphone. Then I woke up with aching pains and a balding head one morning and it seems as if everything and everyone passed me by

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>>3856 By the way, where did you go in which you had to wait 10 hours to get medical attention? I've NEVER had to wait more than maybe an hour at the very most to see a doctor. And that was because the receptionist forgot to tell a nurse that I was there for my appointment.

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>>3862 But if it is one thing that can put a smile on my face is thinking of the past. I never had an eventful life but I did have moments where I actually did stuff. I used to go to concerts every week. I used to go to car shows and drag races. I used to go to the mall and just walk around talking to people because I was bored God I miss the days ; ; When I was carefree because I thought I was normal/attractive Not knowing I was actually ugly the whole time and making a fool of myself LOL Ignorance surely is bliss I guess It just hurts knowing....not necessarily what "could" have been but just knowing that this isn't the life I was supposed to lead. I know for a fact I wasn't supposed to live like how I am living. Afraid and poor and alone in misery. This isn't living. I just know that for a fact But reminescing always can give me momentarily lapses of good feelings. What I was. Who I was. How great I felt to be alive back then. Waking up and having hope for the weekends haha now i dread the weekends. another week passed that makes me closer to 40. closer to death. closer to dying a virgin. closer to realizing i never had any fun in this world. knowing i took time for granted because I was "waiting" for life to happen Waiting for my life to get better Waiting for something spectacular to happen to me Waiting for love

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>>3864 And being in a hospice only to realize this was my last chance and that I didn't take it That I just lead a life full of regrets and uncertainty A pitiful existence And I can never go back

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>>3865 You could always an hero chum.

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>>3867 Sex or 40 suicide Whichever comes first I've stated before there are many studies that show that men get their most education/income in their 40s as their best financial years If I could just get rich I just know I could live a better life and find me a wife. Even then if I was rich I've already told you all I have no qualms about buying a Phillipine/Vietnam wife as I think those Asians are the prettiest

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>>3870 *prettiest Meant like overall best wife material

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>>3870 If you don't an hero, you will still be working the same job, and still a virgin when you turn 40. It's like you're postponing the inevitable. The most lazy suicidal kV ever.

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>>3874 All my bosses and superiors have always told me I do an amazing job. I'm the "go to" guy at my job right now and help my bosses whenever they ask One day they will ask me to become apart of their team hopefully. Once that happens I can start making an adult wage I do not have a degree of any sort like they do but I'm sure that over time they will see my strong dedication and work ethic. They've told me so about my abilities. Even without a degree I'm sure I can become a higher position if they just recommended me to the director of the hospital or something. Even if I don't make management salary and a little lower than them it would still be an improvement. I think I've showed what I am capable of and a promotion is long overdue IMHO

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>>3878 Why not just ask for a promotion then? You said before that you'd been there for nearly 20 years. Unless they're abusing you financially, I don't see why they'd have an issue with that considering your loyalty to the organization.

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>>3881 >Why not just ask for a promotion then? I don't want to over-step my capabilities and give them any reason to think I am at fault for something. I'm just going to play it safe until they offer me a promotion. If I ask, and they turn it down, I will look like a dumbass. I've read on the Financial Inquirer that you ask for promotions when you have a backup to fall back on and use as leverage. Like if you can leave for another company that will buy you out. I have no skills other than my dedication. I have no backup company willing to buy my contract. Nobody else knows about me. I've only had this job my whole life. If they fire me I'm fucked and will end up working at Burger fucking King

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